She rises from her cozy bed to begin her day, disappointed at the cold nipping at her toes.  Hunting for chocolate within her advent calendar, she realizes there are only sixteen sleeps remaining before the jolly old elf and his team of flying reindeer will arrive on our rooftop.  She claps her hands together in delight, her eyes filled full of wonder as she anticipates the magic that Christmas morning will bring.

Twinkling lights strung through mossy green garland break the morning darkness and the warm scent of gingerbread seems to linger in every last corner of our home.  Crafty decorations held together with globs of glitter and paste dot the branches of our spindly tree as wired gold ribbon, laced in circles, shimmers slightly.  Her eyes widen as she processes every last detail – the wool stockings which hang so expectantly from the mantle, the Nutcracker standing so stately upon the hearth, the cranberry wreath welcoming friends and family to our door.  Together, we lose ourselves in the senses of the holidays.

We watch as puffs of white crystals fall softly from the sky before dusting the ground with their frosty kisses.  I imagine them caressing my eyelashes and my nose as a verse from “My Favorite Things” plays melodiously in my mind.  I travel back in time, recalling moments of prickly cheeks and snow angels.  Now, I watch my daughter take pleasure in those same offerings, her chatter broken by laughter as she trudges through knee-high powder.  This is the wonderland that is winter.

She stretches, her long limbs tangle in the soft blankets as she pulls herself from another peaceful journey to Nod.  A new day is dawning, one filled with curiosity and good intention.

Silently she searches for her favorite friend – a tattered bear who has not left her side since they were first introduced.  His worn brown fur smells exactly like her and his stitched-button nose is nearly threadbare from her endless kisses.  He is her everything.

At seven years old she is my definition of beauty and grace.  I lose myself in her tiny details – a lone freckle at the base of her nose,  sparkly-painted fingernails,  skin that is as soft as it was the day she was born.  She is my everything.

Filled with a quiet exuberance, she lives to observe the fluttering of butterflies and the steps of a dancer, making me long for that same innocence.  Her excited chatter is broken by youthful laughter, her smile revealing a mixture of both baby and adult teeth.  My little girl is growing up.

We curl around each other, mother and daughter, reciting the same verse we have since she was newborn, expressing a love for each other that will never end.  I want to slow time down, make each second last longer than it does.  As day passes to night, she seems to grow a little more while needing me a little less.  I string together memories and photographs, watching her metamorphosis from infant to toddler to child to… the development of her being so obvious and natural in hindsight.

As a child, I believed that growing up was the greatest challenge I would face.  As a parent, I now realize that letting go is far more difficult.

The world, a tangled mess of war and famine, remains a beautiful thing. So often the minute details, the individual stitches that hold the patchwork together, are overlooked. It becomes natural to miss the very thing that reflects back at you. In discovering life, the one I live my experiences in, I have noticed things I never have before – one season spilling into another, patterns in strawberry fields, long shadows cast by tall trees. Feeling a bit like Alice after she plummeted down the rabbit hole, my perspective has morphed from cavalier to a deeper understanding.

Images of pastoral settings weigh heavy on my heart, calling to mind memories of lush grass tickling my bandaged knees while the scent of honeysuckle, so sweet and pungent, fills the air with richness. Stretching upwards to the bellies of the clouds, the amber colored rocks of a steep mountainside stack up unevenly like the thick chapters of a classic Dickens novel, so wonderfully disjointed. I hear my sister between broken giggles, a melodic offering of tag-you’re-it. Her long hair streaked with gold catches in the sunlight as she pulls me back to reality.

Summer is already being cast aside for the cooler months that autumn offers, the leaves once an elaborate shade of jade, now yellowing slightly while loosening their grip on the twisted branches of trees. Soon, the days will be short and the nights will be frosty.

Droplets of rain trickle down the windowpane like tears on the cheeks of a young child, creating wet pathways along their journey. Quenching the dry earth of its thirst, petals cower against the weight of the shower while rainbow pools of gasoline puddle upon the pavement. Stars cling to their black canvass like little pinpricks in a piece of paper, breaking the darkness with their constant light. The dulcet drumming lulls me off to dream.

The arrival of summer brings the usual festive traditions, those friendly reminders that take me back to my childhood; the smell of grilling hot dogs on the barbeque, the feel of wet sand between my toes, the taste of cold lemonade bought for 25¢ from a road-side stand.  It is all so familiar, like a long-lost best friend that I grew to count on.

At six years old, freedom was found on the seat of Pink Missy.  Complete with sparkly tasseled handlebars and multi-colored Spokey Dokes, my pink and white bicycle allowed me to explore the world (or at least the small town I grew up in) with ease and confidence.  Sitting ever-so keenly in my basket was my prized possession, my sidekick if you will – Miss. Piggy, a yellow and pink stuffed friend who was given to me my very first Christmas from Uncle Frank.  She ventured everywhere I did… and without question or hesitation.  She was one courageous pig, I tell you!

It never occurred to either of us to be wary of scraped knees or loss of stuffing, though we both have scars to prove an otherwise unsafe expedition; she with her gnarly re-stitching performed by my older sister, me with my rather extensive knowledge of what it feels like to have a bare-skin-meets-loose-gravel kind of situation.

No matter how many times we tumbled and didn’t make it home as intact as we were when we departed, our routine never changed.  Each morning, we left when the grass was still wet with dew, each night we returned when the sun was kissing the horizon.  It was how I learned to tell time, the indicators that referenced where I was supposed to be at any given moment.

Life was easy then.  I sustained myself on a diet of peanut butter sandwiches and Tahiti Treat (an odd combination though surprisingly complimentary) and paid little attention to the fact that I wore ill-matching clothes and my Shirley Temple-like perm left little to be desired.  I had cheeks that resembled a chipmunk and a little round belly that, in my frilly red bikini, stuck out in the most adorable way.  Beyond that, my legs were speckled with mosquito bites and bruises and my pronunciation of simple words like baseball and shorts always caused a giggle or two.  When it came down to it, all of that equated to very little.   The only thing that concerned me was what was around the next corner, what the next adventure Miss. Piggy and I had ahead of us on good ol’ Pink Missy.

While I may never don another red bikini with such reckless abandon, I would love to live life the way I did then… taking pleasure in the simple things.